Wow.
I could go on for a long time about this verse.
Then one of them, named Caiaphas, who was high priest that year, spoke up, “You know nothing at all! You do not realize that it is better for you that one man die for the people than that the whole nation perish.”
He did not say this on his own, but as high priest that year he prophesied that Jesus would die for the Jewish nation, and not only for that nation but also for the scattered children of God, to bring them together and make them one.
John 11:49-52
This was part of the conversation which led to the plotting of Jesus’s death. Caiaphas, the high priest of the time, a man who directly accused Jesus of blasphemy, couldn’t even fathom the truth in his words. The purpose in the statement for Caiaphas was that by killing Jesus they could protect the nation from the Romans. God’s purpose of the purpose was the prophese.
This got me to thinking about how God uses everyone and has lain everything out for His will. Jesus’s death, though He did not deserve it, was for the salvation of the world… The death of one man can save all…
The beginning of John 11 depicts the story of Jesus bring Lazarus back from the dead. This is what led to the Pharisees meeting which led the plotting of Jesus’s death. Lazarus died so Jesus could raise him from the dead, so that Jesus would die and God would raise Him from the dead, making it possible that we can all be raised from the dead.
For now I am going to call this utlimate foreshadowing… now let me sit in awe.
A year ago today, talented actor Heath Ledger was found dead in a hotel room. People automatically pointed the suicide finger and the rest is history… The reaons I bring this up (not that he was my favorite actor) but the article in Entertainment Weekly and the movie I’m Not There. Everything just seemed to happen at once: I recieved I’m Not There in my Netflix and the new Entertainment Weekly in the mail yesterday. The article was amazing, I recomend it for anyone interested in Ledger’s career and death, it was all stories from people close to him. The article confirmed that Ledger did not die of a drug overdose but just combined the wrong priscription drugs. I always maintained the theory that the role of The Joker overtook Ledger; he let something in that he couldn’t get out and thus couldn’t sleep at night. The aritcle said his pain came from his seperation from Michelle Williams and the time he had away from his daughter. It ended saying simply that he died from a broken heart.
I put down the article and decide to spend the rest of my night watching I’m Not There. I was a fairly good film, lots of a very good acting but a hard plot to follow. Heath Ledger’s role struck me. He was protrayed as the actor taken over by his fame and thus forever damaging his relationship with his wife. I got to thinking about how maybe it was this role which got into his mind. I really can’t say more on the subject except to watch the film.
I sit back and wonder why it is that I am so impatient. When I allow God to work in His time He doesn’t fail me. How many times do I have to beat it into my head that God has His own perfect, beautiful timing.
I title this post “mending” because I was given the opportunity to mend a relationship. Yes, it was one that has lost meaning to me but that it was brought up again it means so much… I wish I could go into more detail but it really has given me hope for the future and God’s timing.
There are friendships and relationships that I look forward to seeing recovered, mended and almsot ended properly. I must believe that in my waiting God will provide the perfect timing for these things to happen.
I just need patience, honesty and kindess….
I have found myself in wonderfully strange places. Every Monday night I am at some random place in and around Denver with a varying group of people most of which I’ve just met. I am getting to know these people more yes, by talking about Psalm. The simplicity of it all I am sweetly drinking; God is teaching me so much through these Monday night conversations.
- About people being your enemies until you know their story.
- How we should not seek sinlessness but grace, God’s most wonderful gift.
- That God can save us from more hurt by not answering our prayers.
- Acts 14:16-18 (Read it and think about our country)
- The power in testimony…. Psalm 66…. Which brings me back to the top of my list.
God can lead me places I can’t even imagine, I just have to remind myself to be willing.
A new year.
I realize I tend to look back before looking forward, almost as if to say “See what has happened, see what has passed?” and then I say, “What could I possibly imagine for the future?”
What can I possibly imagine for the future? The changes in my life even over the past three years have been immeasurable. I have experienced loneliness, God’s unrequited grace, the importance in friendship even in a few, seeing what God is capable of but still allowing it to not be grasped. I feel a build-up in my heart, how can I express what has happened, what I’ve face, what I’ve learned? My heart sags in my chest at the weight. The emotional, romantic side in me wants to revisit those places and people who have made such a difference, who God has used so beautifully and say all the things it has meant. If I’ve had the opportunities the messages have been missed, so in the end there really is nothing to say.
