I know I just posted about Rocky Votolato but I just can’t help but see the messages in his Suicide Medicine album. I’d like to know if other people see a spiritual message in this song as well.
Are you gonna die with that music inside
Did you catch the twilight on your way into work
You can live anything you can think
Man I’m not lying to you and yeah that’s a threat I don’t want to have to bury you like this
Something’s gotta get your attention
If I have to crack open your skull with my fist
I’ll let the light and the sound escape
Listen now
You can hear the sound
Surrender and let the light come out
Don’t be afraid
Let me hear your voice
What you will live is what you make
I know you’ve worked hard your whole life
And now your tired the money is never enough
It’s never gonna be enough man that’s not even the point
The only thing you can’t afford is to keep buying the lines your fed
I know it’s comfortable to go back to sleep
Take a look at what you’ve been lying in
Before you wake up in search of your paycheck death
The demons of regret are making your deathbed
Listen now
You can hear the sound
Surrender and let the light come out
Don’t be afraid
Let me hear your voice
What you will live is what you make
Don’t be afraid
Let me hear your voice
Let the light come out
Cause I’m ready now
Like I never was before To see what this is all about
I know, now that I look at it, it wasn’t really the intent of the song to have the meaning it does to me, but still… I like it and I wonder, especially concidering my last post.
I left church today and Rocky Votolato’s Suicide Medicine was in my cd player. I love this album and have probably listened to it the most out of any other. Alabaster was playing and I couldn’t believe what I had missed before. I wish I knew more about this song. It has many, many blatent biblical reference but I’m not entirely sure on the heart behind it. Here are the lyrics:
On the outside looking in
i’ve never been able to crack the code
to break the secret spell
that would open up the door and let me in
to everything I’ve been looking for so hard I’ve never seen
but I feel my strength returning tonight
its flowing from the purest well to ever give water
out into an ocean where the sharks are circling
a carnival of counterfeits has no room for something real
arrogance and ego wrapped around every word
shouted from the pulpit as a judgment to control
these were my roots my seed was thrown in shallow soil
I grew into the thorn bushes to be scorched by the sun
but I feel the gravel move beneath my feet
the smell of the gasoline mixed in with the trees
when my faith is strong I know my strength
the threats will be screamed when the vultures fell threatened
so I’ll open up the door and let you in
I want to break the alabaster smell the sweet perfume
and when the bottle is broken I’ll have nothing left to give
I’ll know I’ll already have everything worth having
but I feel my strength returning tonight
its flowing from the purest well to ever give water
out into and ocean where the sharks are circling
a carnival of counterfeits want to crucify something real
The references:
The door -
Here I am! I stand at the door and knock. If anyone hears my voice and opens the door, I will come in and eat with him, and he with me.
-Revelation 3:20
Purest well -
but whoever drinks the water I give him will never thirst. Indeed, the water I give him will become in him a spring of water welling up to eternal life.
- John 4:14 (to note, this is Jesus speaking to the woman at the well)
Seed in shallow soil and thorns -
5Some fell on rocky places, where it did not have much soil. It sprang up quickly, because the soil was shallow. But when the sun came up, the plants were scorched, and they withered because they had no root. Other seed fell among thorns, which grew up and choked the plants.
-Matthew 13:5-7
Perfume -
While Jesus was in Bethany in the home of a man known as Simon the Leper, a woman came to him with an alabaster jar of very expensive perfume, which she poured on his head as he was reclining at the table.
When the disciples saw this, they were indignant. “Why this waste?” they asked. ‘This perfume could have been sold at a high price and the money given to the poor.”
Aware of this, Jesus said to them, “Why are you bothering this woman? She has done a beautiful thing to me. The poor you will always have with you, but you will not always have me. When she poured this perfume on my body, she did it to prepare me for burial. I tell you the truth, wherever this gospel is preached throughout the world, what she has done will also be told, in memory of her.”
- Matthew 26:6-14
I am not sure of the meaning behind this song but there are definately some stand out messages. It is just so cool, I had to blog about it!
This is five years old but its all I got, so you can hear the song.
I haven’t said anything about my job in awhile, which if you look at my old blog you will see a lot of Starbucks news especially about a year ago. I bring it up now because of a recent employ being fired from the company. Starbucks was her life, she knew it, and I could understand because Starbucks was my life for a long time. When you don’t have anything else you can truly enjoy or excel at you learn to love your job. I think her “let go” had just reason and maybe it wasn’t handled in the right way, I’m not sure, I don’t know all the details but I do know that we were all shocked by the suddenness of it.
What I am really trying to say is about her reaction. I get a “boycott Starbucks” invitation on Facebook. I read over the page and I totally understand, everything she says is true. The company talks about taking care of their employs and create a positive work environment and blah blah blah… Starbucks is wasteful and half the employs don’t care about the quality which the company claims. These are all things that drive me crazy as well. Then I just go through every other company in my head… This fallen world. People continue to strive and demand perfection that they will never have in this setting. Corruption is everywhere. This can be looked at as a downer or a pessimistic attitude but I see it as a wake up call. A wake up call to looking in the wrong places. Boycotting something is threatening to take away jobs, jobs from people like me and my co-workers and the people who spend time in an office. It is not as though everyone has hypocritical desires in the company, we are just trying to make a little money that is necessary to live. I just think of how many jobs Starbucks is providing, including health insurance, and I am pleased.
We don’t have control of the situations around us, we only have control over ourselves and stop trying to find peace in this world. Peace of this world is artificial…. True peace, peace that comes from God, is internal and shines through even in the trenches of war.
2_ Go to Quotations Page. Select “random quotations” [or click http://www.quotationspage.com/random.php3 ] The last four — five words of the very last quote on the page is the title of your first album.
A year ago today, talented actor Heath Ledger was found dead in a hotel room. People automatically pointed the suicide finger and the rest is history… The reaons I bring this up (not that he was my favorite actor) but the article in Entertainment Weekly and the movie I’m Not There. Everything just seemed to happen at once: I recieved I’m Not There in my Netflix and the new Entertainment Weekly in the mail yesterday. The article was amazing, I recomend it for anyone interested in Ledger’s career and death, it was all stories from people close to him. The article confirmed that Ledger did not die of a drug overdose but just combined the wrong priscription drugs. I always maintained the theory that the role of The Joker overtook Ledger; he let something in that he couldn’t get out and thus couldn’t sleep at night. The aritcle said his pain came from his seperation from Michelle Williams and the time he had away from his daughter. It ended saying simply that he died from a broken heart.
I put down the article and decide to spend the rest of my night watching I’m Not There. I was a fairly good film, lots of a very good acting but a hard plot to follow. Heath Ledger’s role struck me. He was protrayed as the actor taken over by his fame and thus forever damaging his relationship with his wife. I got to thinking about how maybe it was this role which got into his mind. I really can’t say more on the subject except to watch the film.
I realize I tend to look back before looking forward, almost as if to say “See what has happened, see what has passed?” and then I say, “What could I possibly imagine for the future?”
What can I possibly imagine for the future? The changes in my life even over the past three years have been immeasurable. I have experienced loneliness, God’s unrequited grace, the importance in friendship even in a few, seeing what God is capable of but still allowing it to not be grasped. I feel a build-up in my heart, how can I express what has happened, what I’ve face, what I’ve learned? My heart sags in my chest at the weight. The emotional, romantic side in me wants to revisit those places and people who have made such a difference, who God has used so beautifully and say all the things it has meant. If I’ve had the opportunities the messages have been missed, so in the end there really is nothing to say.
I always wonder what dreams mean. How could they not mean something, especially when they are so rarely in my life. Latey dreams have been strange for me. In away I’m in a new relationship becuase of a few dreams. I also feel like I know some things about people because of dreams.
When JK Rowling announced that Professor Dumbledore was actually gay she did state that it should be recognizable in the books. I wasn’t completely sold on this until what I just read in the Sorcerer’s Stone:
“Dumbledore had swapped his pointed wizard’s hat for a flowered bonnet…”
